i always felt guarded
first,
my parents over sheltered me
second,
my elder sisters pulled me back
from tripping on wrong choices
third,
i built myself a castle of ideas
that sacrificed their walls for me
fourth,
i met you
and i felt unsafe and exposed
until you showed me that people
didn’t need castles for protection
they needed homes
and for so long
you were my home
i never thought i’d ever shed your skin
from mine
so when you left
i waited for a
fifth,
but there was nothing
with twenty years of filtering life
and letting people and faith surround me in
walls
i was naked;
standing on mountains of air
falling through the clouds
and still
i’m accelerating
waiting for my neck to break as i hit the ground
but all i see is another layer of air
no matter how fast i fall
i can’t find anything
to protect me
from myself.